We often let ourselves get into a relational routine. We find ourselves rubbing shoulders with people with whom we no longer share anything. We seem to have skimmed all the subjects. There seems to be nothing more interesting to tell each other since the very beginning.. We chat then in the useless, in the factual and in stupidity to fill the void. Habit and routine go hand in hand when we are no longer attentive to inner movements. Then we carry on in a semi-awake existence, without asking any more questions. We conform to the model, and do what we were told. We work, we raise kids, we pay the house credit..
THIS HALF-TINTED EXISTENCE ENDEAVORS FOR THE FUTURE, IT IS STILL AN ESCAPE FROM THE REALITY OF WHAT ACTUALY IS.
Emptiness disturbs, so we clutter up with what we can : abstractions, pleasures and abuses of all kinds. We are aware deep down but it seems easier to escape than to observe the fact of who we are, it is less painful in the moment.
PAIN IS ACCUMULATION, WHICH IS THE PRODUCT OF THOUGHT..
We give importance to pain to give importance to what we are. It is the self image which is wounded, for without it there can be no wound. We give importance to the ego because we are empty and superficial. The person who says "I" is a form of illusion, an accumulation over time, a psychological construction without depth, a series of images forming a fragmentation : to be a man, worker or entrepreneur, husband, father, Catholic, right-wing, French, Mayenne, owner or tenant, marathon runner or Sunday jogger etc. Only images that try to coexist to form a unified whole. But the fragmented being is full of contradictions.
Contradiction breeds conflict and confusion. And we flee this state of affairs in the distraction. Church, mosque and synagogue are distractions, because the sacred exists outside dogmas, conditioning of words and rituals. So there is nothing sacred in us, only simulacrum and childishness..
Our beliefs give us a certain authority to pretend to what we are not. Thus all that we defend and that we have accumulated is of little value. It is only memories, wounds, images, pleasures, certainties and beliefs without any understanding of what forms a unified whole. And to see this honestly without running away from it is the start of intelligence. And intelligence is not the fruit of thought, accumulation of knowledge is not intelligence..
Yet we spend most of our life accumulating knowledge and experiences. However knowledge and memory belong to the past, just like habits and traditions are. It act as authorities which condition the present. The present is the modified past projecting itself into the future. Is it possible to live the present without the weight of the past, without being encumbered by conditioning, and free from projection and becoming ? How can we find this out ? With conditioned thinking ? Truly ? No. Thought must be completely silent so that the individual can exist as a whole, without fragmentation nor injury.
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